If you don’t know me well or if you are part of my family, you may sometimes think that I was pretending to be sick.
You may think that you may not be tired all the time or that it is impossible for anyone to live in constant pain and I wish that were the case and I, like many others, I had no experience for our family and our family. knowledge
Pretending to work well every day until brutal torture and we can only meet half our obligations bloated pills and painkillers, hard to drag when I finally got home, we can’t move or intense and unbearable pain and painful exhaustion that never goes away. recovered.
But after all, I have no choice but to pretend to be good.
It’s so much easier to pretend and show me that things are going well because I don’t have to defend myself like that. I do not have to explain to anyone that life is possible in constant and constant pain.
I do not have to go back to list the symptoms with someone who is not interested. I do not have to justify the relentless fatigue. I don’t have to explain why I didn’t go to the gym or pool before. I would like to go, but I am not.
I don’t quite understand why I think I should pretend to be good while the opposite happens. Why is the opinion of others so important? Why don’t I care what they think?
I am tired, very tired of trying to explain how I really am, I explained to family and friends that I did not understand my everyday reality, even said that doctors looked at me with disbelief and was asked “Say it is not possible. Symptoms
A small yes, thank goodness, but not much and maybe that’s why I developed great acting skills in a role I never asked to touch.
It’s crazy, but sometimes I feel like a criminal who is constantly being tried by people who know nothing about me or my life, and in this world it’s better to pretend that those who barely know or don’t know don’t give you tips you should do. without having any idea or believing that it is better than I know how I am and what affects me or not.
Even if it costs me, I always try to be nice when someone asks me how I am. It’s a question that sometimes infuriates me because I can’t tell the truth, but I stop and try to change the subject or try to solve it with a brief ‘I’m fine’.
I could say, “Today I can get out of bed without help” or “I did something better for a few days if the pain gave me a rest” or “This week is hell because I’m going through a crisis”
But that would make me justify my situation again because I had to explain why I feel this way, and probably don’t believe it, so the answer is never the truth.
I would like to stop pretending to feel good and show my true condition, I would like those who asked me to be really interested in my condition and not see or hear, as others suspect that I am lying when I tell them. real
Do you have a need to pretend it’s okay if you’re not? Do you want to change it?
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